Random Rants

Today my Ethics teacher totally left me in the dust. Don't get it. I understood what I read last night until 10pm...but today when he opened his mouth...sure didn't sound like the stuff I read in the book. So that may be 2 tutors I need this semester...just freaking great.

Algebra...another 220 roughly by tomorrow. Yippee skippy.

Things I love about my hubby......when he is sleeping, and I mean sound asleep...snoring, the whole bit, and if I am laying facing him with my leg gently touching his two legs....he will (totally in his sleep) take his top leg and pull my leg in between his and put me in some kind of weird wrestling hold...lol. I experimented with this this morning....and every time I would pull away...here comes the funky scissor hold thing again...giggle...

Another thing I love is that when we are sleeping facing away from each other...we HAVE to be touching somehow. It has been this way every since we were dating. It can be as simple as just our feet touching....or as complex as our backs together with the funky scissor hold thing going.

Our showers together are fabulous. They are fun, sexy, slutty, and a overall positively bonding moment that we set aside almost everyday whether it is in the morning or evening. The fact that my hubby got up this am at 5:45 JUST to shower with me was priceless.

Tonight he gets all of his gear from the firehouse. His pagers, turn out gear, etc etc. Can't wait to see his sexy ass in his fireman outfit all dirty...can we just pause for a moment.......

Ok I am back from that lol.

In other news I am largly angry. I have tons of thoughts running through my head and most of them are very resentful, hateful, and angry. I am tired of not knowing what to believe, and hearing more then one side of everything. Ultimately words are words...I have lots of thoughts on this and when I can actually relay them I will.

Hubby, you have given and shown me love. You have been dedicated to me and to ALL that I need from the moment I met you. We have grown, changed, loved, cried, yelled, and been together so much now that I can not imagine my life without you and honestly know in my heart that even when you are angry......you would never leave.

Another rant coming really soon.....the word TRUE....that word pisses me off and honestly I am tired of people in the community saying things like "true sub" "true slave" "true Grand fuckin pooba" DO NOT use that word around me...because it is bullshit. No one and nothing are true anything....once again it is just a word, a label....and I will tell you all something else...do not ever say to me that I can not or will not be a "true" anything...because I have worked hard to get where I am at, the person I am, the submissive or slave that I am, etc etc. I am proud of my service, my love, my SELF and NO ONE will ever take that from me...if you don't think I am TRUE then you don't deserve knowing me in the first place.

That concludes my rants for this moment of the day.....later I will be posting one of my fantasies.....oh boy....