The floor

Totally got Algebra and Ethics today...woohoo. Had a great lunch with a new friend. She is the mom of one of my son's friends and we have a lot in common. Tonight Sir will be at the firehouse all evening doing training and I will be online, homework, laundry and assorted other goodies.

Last night Sir went out to talk with a new friend. There was some misunderstanding (mine) as to whether or not I was to call Sir while he was out. I did the household chores that were assigned to me while he was gone, and then called before I slipped into bed. That was the wrong thing to do. I interrupted their conversation (uh oh) The point was made to me that I had misunderstood, and he would call me upon leaving. When he called me upon leaving, I was instructed to get my blanket and pillow and go sleep on the bathroom floor for interrupting his evening and for not listening closer when he gave me instructions for the night. (I am assuming the bathroom because our bedroom has so much furniture in it that there is no room in there but I dunno why really) The neat thing is that when I was told to do this, I did not argue, fuss, or complain. I did not question. I got my blanket and pillow and slinked my way into the bathroom. I lay my blanket down and curled up on top.

As I lay there I had TONS of things running through my head. I was cold, uncomfortable, upset that I had not made him happy, and also felt loved and safe. (interesting) I have never felt quite all of those things with him before in this dynamic. I guess I drifted off because when he came home and into the bathroom he tapped my on the hip and told me to gather my things and join him in his bed. Point given, taken, and understood. He asked me why I was told to sleep on the floor and I answered, he asked me why I was allowed into the bed and when he told me why it made my heart melt..."because I like having you close to me, by my side" (awwwwwww)

Today I feel calmer, happier, and more at peace then I have in a long while. I know this will not be easy as he finds his ground with me and I with him....but it is the dynamic we have both wanted ever since we came into all this together years ago. As I was lying there, I was the most disappointed in myself that I have ever been, but also more secure in knowing and trusting that I will be ok, we will be ok, and that things will work out the way they are intended to.

Life today, is beautiful.......in all regards......and I am most thankful for this oppurtunity with him.